omg! It's Megan!

I'm just a girl living life as she wants too, all of this shit only get's me because i let it. But i keep my chin high pushing through life, treating everyday is a new day. My life is built on false hope and regrets, but it makes me who i am.
[I live in the pits of hell deep in the country of Georgia. I am 50% Vietnamese 50%Guyanese... I'm an extremely awkward person and occasionally shy. I'm a dreamer but i have no way to full fill those dreams because of the people around me. Is it necessary to say im straight and I'm 16 years of age?]

I feel so god damn lonely, lonely isn’t even the word for it anymore.  

My loneliness has turned into a nauseating cloud of smoke in the pit of my stomach. I need a hug from anyone but my mother… maybe i sound like a complete loser right now… but who on here doesn’t?… right? Will you love me… will anyone love me?